Thinking alone (poem)

When I'm alone I tend to think

I think about the things that I loathe
I think about the things that I hate.
And...
Their mostly all about me

Im sitting here in silence wondering why

Or how I get by without dying

I judge my self worth while thinking about all the bad things that I've done

And all the mistakes that I've made

The silence is slowly killing me

I Wonder about the people that are no longer my life

And what I could have done to keep them from leaving

Some of them I miss
Some of them i don't
But...
Being alone breaks me

When I break to the point beyond repair

I get thrown away and put in a can

 like yesterdays trash cause nobody cares

I try to be brave and save everyone else from there problems

But I am still slowly dying

And nobody knows because I do not show

My bruises my wounds or my internal bleeding

When I'm alone I'm left with my thoughts

Thoughts of my past and of my future

My past forever haunting me

And my future forever bothering me.

 Please don't leave me alone




-Inspired teenage crafter(blogger) / Inspired teen writer(watt pad)